As he lay down to sleep one more time in this strange house, he felt bittersweet, but also still angry…
Jeremiah was sitting in his grandmother’s chair. He loved that chair! it brought him good memories of a loving nan he’d lost so long ago. It felt like an eternity and it still hurt so much.
He was staring at a book lying on the floor, next to his journal.
Curiosity got the best of him and he picked it up, not realising what he was about to encounter when he opened its pages.
The first page was filled with words he’d never heard out loud.
JOURNAL ENTRY, MAY 19TH 1997
I love my son.
He is wonderful even if he’s so angry all the time.
Is it my fault that he’s so angry? What did I do wrong?
I’ve tried my best with him and I don’t know what else to do. Somebody please help me!
I need help. Serious help. I know I’m depressed, but I feel if I accept this to anyone else, that will be the end of me.
I’m scared.
I hope he can forgive me one day. The pain is so much to take. I just want it to stop.
This dream was one of those dreams where Jeremiah knew he wasn’t awake. He knew this was a dream whilst he was in it.
The words were still hitting him hard. In a good way.
He’d write in his journal, and on his wall, as a way to let all his anger out, but it was overwhelming. It wasn’t enough. It was never enough.
Even if this is a dream, I hope that she does have a journal like this somewhere. I hope that these words are real and that she does realise how hurtful she was when I was growing up.
He sat there for a long time, reading his mum’s words.
Getting to know her in a way he’d never known before. They never spoke about anything but the weather and trivial things.
Most of the time they fought.
As Jeremiah woke up from this very vivid dream, he wiped tears from his eyes.
A sense of relief washed over him as he pondered on those words he’d longed to hear all his life.
The hope that his mum did feel this way allowed him to get up and face another day with The Beckoning Rooms.
I hope this fiction mini-series will hopefully be whetting your appetite and get you ready for the novel. The characters are the same, but what happens in the novel is very different than what happens in this “prequel”.
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